The past little while has been... Interesting. God has brought a lot to the surface. I've been working through different issues and, as is to be expected, it's been a struggle. I have good days and bad days. Days when I feel like I've done really well, and days when I feel like I've blown it. Yesterday was one of those days. I felt like every time I tried to overcome an issue, I'd fall down again. I also heard people talking about how far they'd come in Ignite and I got discouraged. I felt like I hadn't changed a lot and I was still dealing with crap. Another issue has been my personality. Needless to say, I'm a very hyper, happy person. I felt that at times I went too far with it and was starting to bother people. Deeper than that, I worried that people weren't seeing who I really am. Yes, I'm a happy person, but that's not all there is to me. I am capable of carrying on a serious conversation.
Obviously, there's been a LOT running through my head. Thankfully, God knows exactly where I'm at. In worship last night we sang one of my favorite songs. Forever Reign by Hillsong. I love the part that says In hope, I'm running to your arms, I'm running to your arms. The riches of your love, will always be enough. Nothing compares to your embrace... It was so cool, because God gave me this picture. I imagined myself running into His arms, and Him picking me up and swinging me around. I felt Him holding me close and whispering to me, "I love you." That filled me with so much joy, and I was so excited at feeling my Daddy's presence.
If that wasn't good enough, I got a chance today to hear what people think of me. It was so encouraging to be reminded that my personality is who God made me to be. Yes, I'm hyper, yes, I"m happy, but that's me. Not that I can't work to keep from annoying some people, but my job is to bring people joy. I loved hearing how I have an ability to make people happy. Making people's day makes my day. The other thing that really made me smile was when my roommate said that there is a substance to me that goes deeper than the smile. It was so good to hear that somebody realized that.
I love being Daddy's little girl. I love the fact that His arms always open and He's just waiting to show me how much He loves me. I'm running to your arms. The riches of your love will always be enough. Nothing compares to your embrace.
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Amen! Obviously, as your father, I KNOW there's a lot more to you than meets the eye.
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